june 1937, in a letter to Cyril Connolly, written in Barcelona during the Civil War;

>‘I have seen wonderful things and at last really believe in Socialism, which I never did before.’

He was a libertarian socialist at various points, sure, but you're painting him as something he wasn't. He was avowedly a socialist throughout most of his adult life even if he wasn't playing patty-cake with the Trots and the MLs and various other 20th century Euro-centric leftist revolutionary groups