I keep seeing this term “earned” ITT; what does this mean to you? Did you earn something which you were denied when a less-experienced other person got a job? We all have two brain cells and understand there’s a tradeoff being made here, and it sucks being on the other side of that, but i struggle to see what privilege you believe you have or should have.

Tell yourself what you want.

But you don't have to dislike yourself to recognize systemic unfairness that you benefit from and want to help change it.