So, you know how they're built, but you're feeling the pressure of modern life and also they give you personal gain (supposedly) so you're fine with it, it sounds like to me? Use the same tools as your "competitors"/peers, even though?

Don't get me wrong, I too use LLMs for development and more, and I too know how they've been built, and I'm also a creative (music, 3D, VFX and animation) and for sure stuff I've published in the past, both code and otherwise, is now used to create new things for people and I get nothing, similar situation as countless of others. Yet I still use AI, so I'm not trying to create some "gotcha" moment against you here, I'm genuine curious about what you think about this sort of conflicting thinking, as I'm in the very same situation.