> I don't know LISP (any LISP!) at all

I'm a Lisper. I switch between Lisp dialects, sometimes multiple times a day. Since I got my LLM harness to work from inside of Emacs I no longer need to even look at Lisp that it generates for my config.

It is very justified use of AI - if anything breaks, it breaks for me, and mostly just for me. And whenever something doesn't work as expected - I don't even try to debug it anymore - my harness has introspective capabilities - it can run the profiler, monitor changing vars, debug and just fix things.

Now is the best time to try Emacs. If people before could complain that Lisp is weird and not easy to grok, it's not a valid complaint anymore.

Been using Emacs for 37 years. Didn't start learning Elisp until 6 years ago. It's never too late. Wrote an Elisp Cheatsheet for Python Programmers, which helped me level up. Perhaps this might as helpful to you.

https://kickingvegas.github.io/elisp-for-python/

I find it interesting actually. Not embarrassing. You mastered the feature layer more than I. I went into lisp with dreams of making my own features but turns out I was quite limited.

Different psychologies

You're doing it right. When I was gainfully employed, emacs was purely a black-box means to a greater end, i.e., promotions and added responsibility. In my premature retirement, the vortex of emacs became an end unto itself. Believe me, I'd happily trade my emacs expertise for a more meaningful pursuit.

I've been using emacs everyday for the last 25ish years. Although I do read elisp and occasionally write some, I'm far from fluent. You do not need to know lisp to use emacs (although it is funny you didn't pickup some just by osmosis).

We have finite time in our lives. I'd argue it's eminently reasonable to spend time on things other that Emacs' guts, unless that's what tickles your interest.

You may be the most productive emacs user.

emacs is a rabbithole and the cost is rarely worth it. LLM agents do a great job already customizing your configuration for you.

I've always told people: You can be a power Emacs user without learning elisp.

I myself used Emacs heavily for 9 years before learning elisp (clicked on my 3rd attempt).

IMO, the included Elisp guide is not good for beginners. My recommendation:

Separate the language from the ecosystem. First focus on simply learning the basics. How do you set a variable? How do you write a loop? How do you write a function? These things are as easy in Elisp as they are in other languages. Perhaps use Exercism to practice.

Of course, also learn the related keybindings (C-M-x to evaluate, C-x C-e, etc).

Only then start understanding some of the basics of integrating with the rest of Emacs (unwind-protect, save-excursion, save-restriction, etc).